Woah.

If my life could just chill out for like a day that would be great. Too much stuff is happening at once and its overwhelming as fuck. I just wanna sleep for a week straight.

The cold weather is bumming me out.
My allergies are bumming me out.
Having a bazillion doctors appointments is bumming me out.
The fact that my grandma is dying is bumming me out.
Family drama is bumming me out.
Feeling sick all the time is bumming me out.
Being awake right now is bumming me out.
Life in general is bumming me out.

Today's adventure.

My adventure began in the parking lot at work. I was leaving to go to the doctor and I saw a friend and stopped to say hi. He then said to another friend "Isn't she the hottest thing you've ever seen?" kinda made me feel good and then I felt awkward lulz. Then I was driving downtown and I saw a teeny tiny little car. I felt as if I could've picked it up and put it in my pocket. It wasn't one of those stupid clown looking smart cars though. This one was like, an old sports car or something. Idk. It was neat and cute and miniature. Next, I was walking downtown to my doctors office with my headphones in, so I couldn't hear anything. I had to walk past the a bus stop where there are usually people with questionable morals and attitudes.. I'm pretty sure this guy eye-sexed me and probably said something vulgar. Luckily I couldn't hear him or else I probably would've slapped him in his little hoodlum face. JK, I would've just ignored it and kept walking. Anyways, I got to the building and was in the elevator with some people. There was this super cute old couple and the lady kept smiling at me. As I got off on the 14th floor, I heard the lady say to her husband, "That girl had an earring in her nose!" She obviously noticed my septum ring because I flipped it back down after I left the office. Hahaha how adorable are old people, am I right? Next, I waited patiently in the waiting room and then my doctor came in. We discussed my shoulder problems. I'm gonna try physical therapy first and if that doesn't work, she's going to refer me to a shoulder specialist. I didn't even know that a shoulder specialist was a thing, but apparently it is. So that's pretty neat. Now I'm sitting in my car about to drive back to work. I'm legit contemplating a quick power nap.. I mean, I'm in a parking garage, no one will see me...? Nah, I probably should just suck it up and go back to work. I have a busy afternoon ahead of me. K, byeeeee.

Quick update to kill some time

My job freakin rocks. Despite the fact that I've been busy as fuuuck this week, I'm so incredibly thrilled with all of the stuff that I've been doing! This is gonna sound super lame (sorry not sorry), but like, I finally feel like I'm actually worth something to VP. Lame. Told ya. But really though.. My boss has been giving me some somewhat important shit to do. So that's pretty neat and stuff.

My appetite has finally decided to come back. I haven't been hungry for like the last 4 months, maybe even longer than that. Now that I'm suddenly hungry again, I feel the need to create random concoctions in my kitchen. But sadly, I haven't because I'm too sleepy. Which brings me to my next update....

I'm going to the doctor tomorrow to see what my next move is in trying to figure out what the heck is wrong with my shoulder. Hopefully, I'm not dying. But then again, no more student loans......... And I've FINALLY made an appointment with a dermatologist to get all my crazy spots checked out. I'd like to cross off shoulder cancer (which isn't actually a real thing) and skin cancer off my list of possible diseases/illnesses.

That's all I have for now. Gotta get back to work!

My feelings towards doctors and waiting rooms.

I do not like waiting rooms at doctors offices. They always smell like baby poop and old lady stench. Literally, I'm suffocating right now. There are at least 12 other people/children in this tiny ass room and there is only ONE DOCTOR in this office. I might as well set up a tent and get ready to camp the fuck out. I'm praying they have free wifi.... Ok I just checked. I'm currently connected to a printer's wifi. Fuck yea dood.
But like really though. Idk if I'm gonna survive the putrid stench of this waiting room. My nose holes are burning so badly right now. Oh, and did I mention it's cold in here? Yea. Its cold in here. I'm thinking warm thoughts and it's not making me feel warm. I wish I had a blanket and some snacks, cuz I'm also hungry.. Random, but like, here I am sitting in this god awful stankass room, freezing to death, and literally the first food item that comes to mind is a fucking banana split. Like, really brain? Really? A cold dessert? You can do better than that... Chicken noodle soup. Hot wings. Mashed potatoes and gravy. Chili and corn bread. Even a cheeseburger. Those are much more appropriate..
And now, my bladder is informing me that I need to tinkle. This is great. Just fucking spectacular. I am not pleased with today. Can I just go home? Depending on what the doctor says, I might just do that. Go home, eat a sammich, take a nap, maybe do some laundry (probably not tho) because the idea of going back to work makes me wanna cry a little... I keep thinking about all the work that's piled up on my desk right now and I just wanna crawl in a hole and hide forever.
So. Anyways. My appointment is/was scheduled for 11:30, the current time: 11:51, I got here at 11:20. I am still in the waiting room. This is the worst. Like, psh. What's even the point of scheduling an appointment? They never get you in a room til a lot of minutes after your scheduled "appointment time" and then you wait even longer in the room for the doctor to show up and poke you for a couple of minutes then thats it. It's over. You're basically done. Like, why? Why?
Whatever. I just want some allergy and cough medicine so I can feel like a human again. Because, coughing all day and all night isn't fun. And not being able to breathe is totes NOT the bomb dot com. Not only are my nose holes blocked, but my ear holes are blocked as well. Every now and then I'll yawn or something and BOOM, suddenly one ear pops and I can hear again. It's almost magical being able to hear the world again..
Current time: 12:04
Current status: sitting in a temporary room until a real room opens up.
And now I'm waiting patiently to use the potty because I'm literally about to pee my pants. I wish I was joking. I drink a lot of water daily, so when I get the urge to pee, I better find a pisser real fuckin fast.
This really sucks a lot, but I should probably end this ranting blog post now.
Until later, my minions. XOXO

Come on man.

I had a doctors appointment today. It was scheduled for noon. I got here at 11:35. It is now 12:40 and I still have not seen the doctor. What. The. Fuck.

Oh, happy day!

I DON'T HAVE CELIAC DISEASE.

I am so happy right now! Gluten, I can still eat you!!!!!

I also don't have helicobacter pylori, which is weird sounding and doctor-y. (It means there's bacteria in the lining of my stomach, ew.)

Now here comes the tricky  part. Two diseases have been eliminated on the quest to discover what the heck is wrong with me. Time to play the waiting game until my next two doctors appointments mid July. My guess is I'm anemic. It would explain why I'm 24 years old and tired ALL THE TIME.

Well, anyways. I'm still pretty excited about being able to eat gluten. Because donuts is lyfe.

Well then.

Went to the doctor today.
They asked a hundred million questions, which is ok I guess. And then they sent me to someplace for Labs.

What the took/did:
1. Took two tubes of my blood. I miss it already..
2. Took 4 deep breath and then filled up a little bag with my hot air.
3. Had to drink this kinda nasty citrus liquid and wait for 15 minutes.
4. I'm about to go back and blow up another little bag with my hot air. In 2 more minutes.

The blood test is to see if I'm gluten intolerant. The random bags of my hot air are to test my breath for bacteria that might be living (rent free, might I add) in the lining of my stomach.

So, yea that's how my morning has been so far. How is yours?

(sorry for any silly grammatical errors or typos I'm blogging from my phone)
XOXO