Tired.

Hey guys and gals. It's been a while, huh? I need a bit of a rant moment, except I'm not mad or anything. I literally feel nothing right now. I am beyond emotionally exhausted. Literally, all of my emotions have been fully drained and what's left is a shriveled up, pathetic empty shell. If I went to sleep right now, I'm 100% sure I'd sleep for at least 14 hours straight. My head hurts. My back hurts. My shoulder hurts. My joints hurt. Everything hurts. Who knew being emotionally drained would be this physically painful..? The entire month of January has been a blur. I've been walking around for a month in a complete daze. My mind feels foggy. It's a strange thing to realize that an entire month has passed and I barely remember any of it. Here's a small glimmer of positivity: it can only get better from here.

Woah.

If my life could just chill out for like a day that would be great. Too much stuff is happening at once and its overwhelming as fuck. I just wanna sleep for a week straight.

The cold weather is bumming me out.
My allergies are bumming me out.
Having a bazillion doctors appointments is bumming me out.
The fact that my grandma is dying is bumming me out.
Family drama is bumming me out.
Feeling sick all the time is bumming me out.
Being awake right now is bumming me out.
Life in general is bumming me out.

Oh, the pain and suffering...

I'm in such a dramatic mood.



Honestly, I'm not even sure what that means.....

But anyways, I'm so bored and so sleepy and somehow super busy at work. The stuff I'm doing is mindnumbinglyboring. Feels like I'm sitting here asleep with my eyes open. 2 more hours to go. And then 9 hours tomorrow. Then weekend mode. Unfortunately for me, my brain is already in weekend mode.

Nap time when I get home is happening for sure. Such sleepies. zzz

If only..

If I could, I'd take a nap under my desk right now. That's how sleepy I am.
Legit struggling to keep my eyes open. Speaking of eyes, there's a pain behind my left one.
It's only Tuesday. Welcome to the never-ending work week. Ugh.

The complaints are going to stop now. I am reminding myself of all the wonderful things that are happening in my life. For instance, right this very moment I'm messaging my brother, who's in Africa playing with lions and giraffes and ebola. He comes home at the end of January or the beginning of February. Cannot. Frickin. Wait.

I'm out of things to say.

Regrets...& Monday feelz

I 101% regret staying up so late last night.
I also regret not calling into work this morning.
F M L

It is Monday. Again. So sad and so tired.
This is random, but... The office smells like a frozen french fry.
Idk. I'm out of it.

I thought there would be more to say, but there's not.
Literally, can't focus on anything.
Soooo tired. I am a zombie now.

ZOMBIE KITTENS <3

Oh wow. Some feels & randoms.,

Today has been slightly on the blah side so far.. It is currently 9:38 am and I am beyond ready for 5 pm. Work is making me sad and stressed a little. Is there a job where I can get paid a lot of money for just sitting around a looking adorable? Or maybe sleeping a lot, like the more I sleep the more money I make? That right there is my dream job (pun intended).

Wow.

So much blah feels this morning. For real. I'm pretty sure there isn't enough caffeine in the world to wake me the fuck up right now. Sleepy, slightly hungry, raging headache (because I clench my teeth when I'm stressed), and my achy knees and shoulder. I'm falling apart at the ripe, young age of 24 years, 11 months.

Speaking of age... My birthday is exactly one month from today :(

My life is basically in shambles. Someone please put me out of my misery. Oh, and this dreary fucking almost raining bullshit weather definitely isn't helping me feel better. Can I just go home and be a cranky betch in the comfort of my own home??  A bowl of chili, a crappy movie, animal cuddles, and being wrapped in a blanket burrito are exactly what I need in my life at the moment.

Maybe I should stop being such a complainer and be happy about all the cool things that are happening in my life.... Like, woah. I've got some pretty awesome friends. They totes make my life complete. So do my animalz because they are so cute and cuddly and silly. I love them all. Plus, my parents have been chill af lately. *knocks on wood* But really though, all this minor crap that's making me cranky today, is nothing compared to the legit happiness I actually feel most of the time <3 Like, so what if I'm one month closer to my icky birthday? I'm also one month closer to my baby brother coming back from stupid Africa!! That lil booger is finally gonna be home for good. No more deployments, no more military, no more living 10+ hours away. It's gonna be awesome ( I think). Although, to be quite honest, I'm a tad bit worried about him moving back in with me and my roommates (aka parents, lulz) because the four of us haven't lived together since the end of July 2008...... Could be a recipe for disaster, or it could be a recipe for extreme awesomeness. Since history does have a way of repeating itself, I'm predicting that it's gonna be magical and awesome and a lot of bonding type shit is gonna happen in the first, idk like week or 2 maybe even 3, then after that we're all gonna be over it... My family is so strange. I love them forever tho.

I just realized I'm kind of rambling on about nothing..... I tend to do that when I'm deliriously tired. My bad. Hashtag sorry not sorry. Ok, well, I'm actually super swamped with work, probs shouldn't even be blogging this morning. YOLO.

Dead.

I'm. SO. FUCKING. Tired. Someone, please kill me. Curse you, PMS fatigue, curse you. Like, I know caffeine isn't gonna work today. It's just gonna be in my system doing nothing. It'll probably make me sleepier. FUCKING FUCK. I might leave work early today to go home and sleep. That's probably a terrible idea because I'm poor, but at this point I could care less about the lack of funds in my life. I care more about what the inside of my eyelids look like, honestly. I've been at work for almost 20 minutes and no joke, it feels like I've been here for at least 45 mins to an hour. What in the actual fuck? Here is a few illustrations that perfectly describe how I'm feeling today:

It's FRIDAY!

Let's celebrate by leaving work early!!

No..?

Oh, ok.

BRB, gonna go jump in front of a train.




Is it 5 yet?