Woah.

If my life could just chill out for like a day that would be great. Too much stuff is happening at once and its overwhelming as fuck. I just wanna sleep for a week straight.

The cold weather is bumming me out.
My allergies are bumming me out.
Having a bazillion doctors appointments is bumming me out.
The fact that my grandma is dying is bumming me out.
Family drama is bumming me out.
Feeling sick all the time is bumming me out.
Being awake right now is bumming me out.
Life in general is bumming me out.

Holy hell. Monday.

Monday is never a good day. Today is Monday, and today is not a good day. I'm cranky, I'm tired, I feel like complaining for no reason at all, and I don't feel good.
Currently taking a quick mental  health break from work. My brain is fried.

Oh, and I was definitely late for work this morning. Like, seriously? My alarm somehow turned itself off while I was asleep, I guess... JK I know I probably turned it off in my sleep. It's a habit.

So, yea. Fuck today.

Sickly sickly sickly

Literally, I am so over being sickly. It's been a month. A MONTH. Preposterous, I tell you. I've decided to find a new doctor. I feel like the one I've been going to just isn't listening to me or even trying that hard to help me not feel like a big ol pile of doody.

I'm definitely not going to let this stupid sickly feeling ruin my Halloween. I never really get to go out and celebrate Halloween because I usually have to bartend. BUT not this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And for the first time in my entire life, my costume isn't one of those crappy, last minute thrown together slutty nurse/cat/witch/crocodile/etc costumes. It is legit. 2 LEGIT 2 QUIT.

But seriously though, I actually took the time to plan it all out and I started the planning months in advanced. I'm going to be Wednesday Addams and I am going to look so effing radical, it will blow your mind 4 times in a row.

I can't even find the words to explain how excited I am for my costume. It actually is really good.
And my bffs costume is like, 1000x more legit than mine. When I say my costume was thoughtfully planned out months in advanced, his was actually thought out like 6 months ago (or something like that) and he ordered all of the important supplies and pieces and got them in the mail one by one. He sent me pics of all the pieces and then I finally got to see the (almost) complete finished product a few weeks ago. It is such a badass costume. Like, fuhreeealz. You betta believe I'm gonna be posting pics of our awesome costumes after Halloween!! Oh yea, I just realized I didn't even mention what his costume is LULZ. He's gonna be a plague doctor. If you don't know what that is, Google it. JK I found a little illustrated picture that kinda gives a slight idea of how his costume is going to look like....

 

Like, how cool is that??? I can't wait for tomorrow night. I'm so freaking stoked. I feel like a little kid on Christmas!!!

Ok, well I gotta get back to work xoxoxoxoxoxo <3

FRiDAY

Well guys, it's Friday again! Hurray! It's not even noon yet and already this has been quite a hectic day. Oh where do I even start... From the beginning I guess....
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I literally had the worst night's sleep last night. Woke up with a crick in BOTH sides of my neck. Like, how does that even happen?!?? I can't turn my head all the way to the right at all and I can sorta turn my head to the left. FML. Also, my lungs kept me up all night coughing. I got a script for legit cough medicine today tho so I'm good. But, still waiting on the results from my blood test and x-ray. Hope I'm not dying....

Then I got ready for work, woke up 15 minutes late and still managed to get to work early and do my makeup (eyebrows ON POiNT TODAY) and throw together a cute outfit. Ballin. When I got to work, the first person I saw in the parking lot was the owner of the company I work for. Guess what he brought. If you guessed tacos, the you are absolutely correct. He brought tacos for everyone. TACO MAN <3 so anyways, I ate a taco.

Then I had to do something horrible. You know how companies say they do "random drug testing"? Well, most places have like a computer program to randomly choose employees. Not us though. They print out 4 pages with employee numbers and then I have to close my eyes and randomly place my finger on each page and that's how they choose who gets a random drug test. Like, I could potentially get someone fired. Not directly, and it also is sorta their fault for knowing about random drug testing and still doing drugs.. But still I chose them. I chose them randomly. I randomly chose to ruin their lives. I had to do it once before..... The first time, I didn't even know what I was doing. Strange stuff.

Then, the project that I've been working on all week, the one with the spreadsheets (which I love). Yea, that one. I keep having to put it on the back burner to work on a bunch of other random stuff. Like, sending customers invoices, or sending faxes, or replying to emails, or making copies, all whilst answering the phones like a baus. My work life is cray, and I kinda sorta love it.

So that has been my Friday morning so far. YAY IT'S ALMOST THE WEEKEND!!!

My father, & last night...

He is a very smart man. Like, he is really smart. If I need an answer to any questions, I will always ask him first and then Google if he doesn't know. But occasionally he can say/do some really dumb stuff. Yesterday evening, I was taking my usual Monday evening nap. He comes into my room, clearly seeing that I am laying in my bed, under the covers, and all the lights turned off.... He then asks, "What are you doing?"

seriously?......... -__-

To which I responded, "Um.. Napping?" But what I should have said was, "Um.. Climbing Mt. Kilimanjaro." Unfortunately, I was unable to go back to sleep after the rude interruption, so I just got up and made dinner. Sad.

Anyways, I have suffering from allergies. It's that time of year when I cough up a lung every 38 seconds, when I have a nose runnier that a leaky faucet, when I struggle to breathe thought my nostrils or mouth, when I get bronchitis 57 times a month, when I cease to exist because I'm living in a dayquil/nyquil daze, when I suddenly remember why I despise the taste of mucinex, when head feels like a balloon swaying just a few inches from the ceiling, when my ears stop being able to hear things, and when my eyes are itchy and scratchy and watery.  White bitches love fall. Uggs come out, pumpkin flavored everything happens, and the temperature drops to a bearable 65-75 degrees (aka sweater weather). This is the time of year I don't particularly care for. Every. Fucking. Year. I get all nasty and ill. It kills my vibe. Last night, pre-sleeps, this is what I took to help combat the unfortunate symptoms of Fall allergies:

1. Help, I can't sleep!


2. Nyqyil cold & flu


3. Doctor prescribed cough medicine called Guaifenesin



4. Mucinex


5. Walgreen version of Zyrtec


So basically it was a medicinal cocktail, garnished with a coughdrop and served with a side of tissues. PLZ KILL ME. Hashtag over it.