Bad habits & things of that nature

Everyone has bad habits.. Literally, everyone. That includes Beyonce, the pope, Blu from Blue's Clues. I'm basically the queen of bad habits. I've tried to break them, but it never seems to work out. For example, smoking. I smoke. A lot. Literally, every time I try to quit, I quit quitting and end up smoking more than before. It's a pretty vicious cycle. Tied for 1st in the category of my bad habits is cursing. I have a horrible potty mouth. I'm able to curb my mouth at the right times (most of the time).. But sometimes those F Bombs just sneak out.. Like, whoops... My b. I gotta work on thta...

But I have also successfully quit a couple of my bad, dare I say, worst habits. Binge drinking. That was the big one that got me into trouble constantly. I woke up one day and was like "Woah, I'm an adult now. I can't be running around getting wasted all the time..." And just like that, I started making better weekend decisions, like staying in and hanging out with  my cat or having a Netflix night. Totally responsible, right? Heck yea. Plus (in my own personal opinion) it's not cute for a 24, almost 25 year old woman, running around getting super trashed every weekend. That kinda stuff was ok(ish) in college, but in the real world? C'mon now.... I'm not saying that I quit drinking forever... I drink almost daily. A beer after work, or a glass of wine with my ramen noodles always hits the spot. I've become that person who only goes out drinking for special occasions. And not the whole "oh, it's Saturday, let's celebrate" or "oh, I went the whole day without saying the word 'cheese', let's celebrate". Like, a birthday or an old friend is in town, or something like that. Very rarely do I feel the need to just go out because I feel like going out. I kinda think it also might be because I'm a lazy sack of shit, too. Because, having to shower and then fix my hair and then do my make up and then decide what to wear out....... It's just too much effort, and the thought of having to socialize makes me want to vom. I ain't about that life anymore. Rather than binge drinking at a bar and getting sloppy in heels, I'd rather stay home in my sweat pants and drink a bottle of wine, whilst conversing with my cat about love, life, and the pursuit of happiness. Another nasty habit I've dropped, eating fast food on the reg. Literally, so horrible for your body. So horrible. I was an addict. It was so quick and cheap and easy. Hell yea I wanted to super-size my meal. Mickey D's, BK, T-Bell, Jack in the crack.... The grease was enticing. The lack of nutrition was not a problem. I was out of control and didn't think or care about what I was putting into my body. And you know what? It showed. I got chunky. And not like, a little extra padding for the winter, but like, "woah, who are you and why did you eat Shelby??" Bad. So bad. Plus, copious amounts of keystone light didn't help... Luckily for me, I made the smartest decision ever. I moved back home. I moved away from the nonstop party life, the nonstop fast food trips, the nonstop ride to heart attack city. I changed my eating habits, starting taking care of my body, and began respecting myself. Go me, right? Hell yea, go me. I still cheat and have the occasional cheeseburger from Whataburger, or a couple of tacos from Taco Cabana. It's all about moderation, yo.

I'm actually quite proud of myself. Those kinds of habits are not easy to break. I did it though. It took about a year or so, but I did it. Being healthy feels so much better. Not gonna lie tho, kinda craving a cheeseburger now... #PMS but that's a whole nother blog post....